I saw this post and didn't wanna forget it!



Someone posted this earlier, but im reading it and here are some very interesting things i found from it. I don't know the truth in this, but still...interesting

During the absence of food, the body will systematically cleanse itself of everything except vital tissue.

Although protein is being used by the body during the fast, a person fasting even 40 days on water will not suffer a deficiency of protein, vitamins, minerals or fatty acids

Ten pounds of fat are equal to 35,000 calories! Most of us have sufficient reserves, capable of sustaining us for many weeks.

The first few days of a fast can be rough due to the quantity of waste passing into the blood stream. The tongue becomes coated and the breath foul as the body excretes waste through every opening. After the third day of the fast, there is little desire for food.

Cleansing of the last layer is only possible through a combination of juice fasting, water fasting, and a healthy diet high in raw foods.

Fasting is the simplest, easiest and most effective way to find out that we do indeed have the power and freedom to heal and take control of our bodies.

Animals will naturally fast when they are sick or injured, and when we are ill, our hunger diminishes. If we get out of the way and allow nature to take its course, we will find that we can heal from any problem. Since the dawn of recorded time, in fact since before the word "doctor" came into existence, priests provided sanctuaries where people could go to fast. Whereas modern medical practitioners admit that they have no cures, only drugs that mask the symptoms while causing yet other symptoms to appear.

Fasting will also break down tumors and for this reason, many have overcome cancer with fasting.

Ten days on water will cause the same weight loss as 30 days on juice. But water fasting is far more difficult, especially if you have a fast metabolism. Water fasting cleanses the body aggressively removing toxins rapidly. Water fasting can be more beneficial than juice fasting in combating more persistent forms of cancer, cleansing the tissues more aggressively. Water fasting demands mental preparation, the less pressure and responsibility you have during a water fast the better.

To ease into water fasting some recommend juice fasting with periods of water fasting. For example 3 days on juice, 2 days on water, 5 days on juice, then 3 days on water. You can juice when you have to work and water fast on the weekend when you can rest.

The dangers were quite interesting too - towards the bottom of the page. The link is http://www.falconblanco.com/health/fasting.htm#Weight%20Loss I'm tagging it on my Delicious!

I don't want to go to class today. I want to just sit in my room. Sleep, work out, draw, write, listen to music, play some guitar, anything but class. And anything but eat. Everytime I go to class, everyone asks if I ate anything all because of ONE FREAKING TIME when my tummy growled and someone asked if I was hungry and I said I didn't like food.

So it's all my fault, I'm just mad at myself but wanting to blame everyone else because I'm weak. But still....I don't want to go to class and be interrogated again.

To-do list for September 2008:

-make an A in all classes
-lose 10-15 pounds
-fast for at least 7 days out of the month
-go running/do a work out tape at least twice a week
-be a great friend
-learn to understand
-gain patience and wisdom
-be productive
-fight procrastination
-make daily to-do lists
-study study study!
-be the best damn alpha gam! :)


That's all. :)

Edward Cullen. Duh. Hot vampire with good morals and respectable to women. If I'm lucky, maybe he'd even change ME into a vamp. :)

I'm finally moving into the college dorms in less than an hour. And I can't wait. :)

Day 2 of fast is going pretty poorly. I ate 2 big slices of cheese pizza and a peach. Yuck yuck yuck. I hope my new roommate isn't opposed to purging....

So much for fasting today. I don't even want to begin with what I ate. Ugh. I'm done.

I cut myself again today though. It felt....really good. I don't want to start doing that again (actually I do, but I know it's bad for me so i'm going to try to stop). But it just felt so good. Whenever I mess up, cutting helps so much. It releases all my anger out. But hopefully I can quit eating and I'll not cut. haha. :)

Even after gorging myself with spaghetti from Olive Garden and Coldstone Ice Cream, I've managed to lose .5 pounds.

Water and green tea are still my favorite drinks. Ever.

But one good thing is that I've learned how to do the long dash [which is actually called an em dash — and looks kind of like a dash — and looks like that]

One thing I must talk about now while it's fresh on my mind — and just about the only thing on my mind, if I'm being honest — is Breaking Dawn.


WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?! Here is something I can copy and paste that fits mostly what my problems with it were.

First Review:

I loved the first three books. I have always been a fan of Bella and Edward, but I liked how Meyer introduced the Jacob/Bella dynamic to show the complexity of relationships, and that love means SACRIFICE and making a CHOICE. Plot, character, and substance related issues I've had with the series were compensated by the message I believed Meyer wanted to make--Bella choosing to give up a normal life (and everything that comes with it) in order to be with Edward.

Now, I don't know what message the author wanted to say or what she was thinking.

(Spoilers Below)

Bella didn't have to sacrifice anything apparently. She gets Edward AND a baby AND immortality as a vampire. What about poor Jake--not a problem, he IMPRINTS on the baby, which I find disturbing not so much because it is a baby (though that is creepy just as it was with Quil) but because it's Edward and Bella's baby. Can we say cop out? Life doesn't turn out so neatly. People love and lose (and don't fall for the object of their affection's daughter). But in Meyer's world everyone is one big happy family.

So, girls don't worry. If you have problems, they will ALL work out. Is that what the author wants to tell her fans?

Or is it marriage and family by 18 are the way to go, forget about college, developing as a person, all you need is a husband and a child. No disrespect to people who marry at 18, but Meyer paints a glorified picture of the situation; most 18 years old aren't going to have an endless supply of money and never worry about how the lack of an education will affect their future. Yes, this is a novel, a fantasy, we shouldn't expect or require realism--then why go the mommy route at all? Just focus on Bella and Edward. Bella didn't want children, yet when she finds out she's pregnant she doesn't even freak out; she's carrying a vampire's child and it's just "my heart had grown, swollen up to twice its size in that moment."

Or is the author's message be passive and let others take care of you (what if there is no one else--no, no, girls, there is ALWAYS someone). One of my big issues with the series is how Bella has never had outside interests beyond Edward (or Jake), that she's not an independent person. I hoped Meyer would finally have Bella come into her own in this book, have her lack of personality be the result of high school immaturity or something, but obviously the author thinks a person's entire existence should be defined by others, not themselves. Another great message--not.

Don't even get me started on Bella's power. Again, another major opportunity to strengthen Bella's character is wasted. Also, the explanation of why Edward can get Bella pregnant is ridiculous considering the rules Meyer originally established for her world. The story may be dealing with supernatural/fantastic elements, but it still has to have internal consistency.

I wanted and expected a happy ending. I wanted Bella to become a vampire. I wanted there to be a resolution with Jake. I wanted and expected the Volturi to return. I also expected an intense exploration of pain, sacrifice, vampire Bella having to cope with giving up her family/old life. I wondered if Charlie and Renee would find out--wouldn't it be odd if their child just disappeared--and though a parent does find out (sort of), it was hardly the way I imagined it, especially with the way "newborn" Bella played out.

I wanted Jake angst about her being changed, him maybe not accepting her at first (or at all) but him coming to deal with it in some fashion so you felt there was closure at the end. I would have been fine with Jake moving on, but not with Edward and Bella's daughter.

Finally, why must Bella get everything? So much for a powerful message, I guess.




Second Review:

think a lot of fans, die hards and those (like me) who just like to read a good book or series, woke up this morning thinking, "What was she thinking when she wrote this?"

I read the spoilers ahead of time and even though I found them highly amusing, a small part of me wanted them to be fake, even if I ended up with egg all over my face for it.

This review will not make fun of the name Nessie (even though I will stand by my thought that the Loch Ness Monster would not approve) nor will it focusing on Edward going a little to far to prevent Bella the pain of not having children. I think we all can understand why he approached Jacob and the desperation he felt.

The Twilight Series had everything: Powerful forbidden love, choices, sacrifices, and dynamic characters. So much could have been done with the final installment. Rather you were a Team Edward or a Team Jacob fan, you knew Bella would finally have to decide where her heart belonged and fully accept the consequences of her decisions: those good and bad.

I read so many fanfictions while waiting for this book released and I always skipped over the ones where Bella was pregnant because it was so unrealistic, not just because Edward was a vampire but because Bella has always been one of the most immature characters ever created (and I am a Bella fan).

She reminded us all older readers of the pain and greatness of first love. Granted, Bella took it a little too far before, ceasing to exist when Edward left and even resorting to dangerous activities for a delusion of his voice. This was NOT someone I ever wanted to be responsible for a child. She was a child herself. I could easily picture Bella in my head driving her truck with the kid in her lap or accidentally dropping her on her head. I guess its a good thing the child is half vampire. Having a child does not make you an adult or responsible; however as soon as Bella realized she was having one she went from wanting to be protected and cared for to wanting to be the protector. That doesn't happen like that. It's illogical.

Not only is Bella young, she's already married, begging for sex (which turns out to be the only reason shes willing to stay human- that's a good example of maturity), and once again, not even taking her health into consideration.

I am 28 and if I felt a baby kick for the first time, I would freak. I can't imagine what a real teenager would think if that happened. I doubt her first reactions would include joy. I would want my mother. I would be scared.

Bella? No, she calls Rosie.

Which brings me to Rosie. Did anyone else feel sorry for her? Here is this woman who all she wanted was to live and have a child now must endure watching someone have something she would have given her life up for. Nice.

I can't even complain about Jacob. He redeemed himself on some small level even though I never liked how he manipulated Bella into kissing him previous books. I always thought that was borderline sexual assault and really hoped young girls reading that wouldn't have seen that as an attractive quality.

I am not going to even touch on the creepy aspect of him imprinting on an infant but what blows my mind that he imprints on the child of the woman he so desperately loved. How can you even explain that. Its beyond unrealistic and somewhat disturbing. I can begin to imagine the stories Bella and Jacob will share with old Nessie.

Jacob- "I may have pictured your mom naked and pregnant with my child, but hey, you will do."

I know Stephanie wanted to give everyone a happy ending but there was other ways. Phillip and Renee could have had a child and X amount of years later he could have imprinted. A new girl could have moved to town. Hey that would have at least allowed Stephanie to expand the series, and let's admit it, make more money. Instead, he ends up with the child of the woman he loves. That is twisted.

Bella gets everything, which isn't necessarily bad but she gets everything in the most disturbing and inappropriate way. I can not imagine any parent being okay with the message this book provides.

All you need is Men in your life, a baby, marriage, and a small cottage in the woods. No matter how young and irresponsible you are.

Many of Stephanie Meyer's fans will fail to see anything wrong, many of them are young and hung up on the ideal of the perfect Edward, the perfect Love without even acknowledging the message this is sending to them. Already we have enough teen pregnancies, babies having babies, and struggling to be both and parent and a child.

This book tells you that it's okay. Having children that young is Okay.

I have skimmed many of the reviews on Amazon, IMDB, and MISC websites and found that many of her fans think alike on this subject. Many of them saw the potential for a powerful message to be sent to the youth of tomorrow.

A powerful message was sent. A very wrong one.





I actually had no problem with Jacob imprinting on Bella. That was strangely gratifying to me. That he will always have a tie to his bella but yet will love Nessie. Renesmee was hard, but Nessie really isn't that bad of a nickname. Seriously...

How am I going to fix this? Since I don't believe in complaining/whining unless you can do something about it, I'm going to Reread Breaking Dawn. I think, like some people with New Moon, they'd have to reread it a second time to fully understand. Knowing ahead what the story will end up is easy so you can see emotions rather than actions that happen in the book. I must admit, I love New Moon. But it wasn't after the first time I read it. After the second time, it became my favorite book in the saga because I saw things that weren't so apparent during my first readthrough.

Hopefully, it'll be the same for Breaking Dawn as well.


That's the end of my novel long entry.

I stuck well to what I said I was going to do. I fasted today. Only water and homemade green tea. I don't like to buy bottled stuff because first off, its not exactly the real thing and second, most of it tastes gross or sweetened or too much lemon or something in it. I like to make my own green tea, which tastes so much better and I KNOW what goes in it. :)

But that's not the best news!!!


THE BEST NEWS IS THAT I BURNED 1040 CALORIES IN ONE SESSION (3 HOURS) AT THE GYM TODAY!!! =D

So today isn't exactly the 28th yet, but I just found out that Kris is coming down from being in the navy for so long and I am no where near perfect for him. I mean, he liked me even when I was average weight. By average, I mean normal people average...

Anyway, after messing up at Outback Steakhouse today and not being able to purge it all since it digested in my stomach on the hour and a half ride home, I'm fasting tomorrow. Green tea and water only. On Friday, I'll eat fruits and vegetables only. Meaning, I should save up some money to buy fruits and vegetables since the only kind I eat are the exact ones that everybody else in my family doesn't eat and vice versa.

I meet my dorm roommate on August 22nd and I'm really nervous. I've already seen a picture of her. I know it sounds mean, but she isn't extremely gorgeous in the face, but she is a swimmer and incredibly lean and thin and I know I don't compare at all. I worry about being the ugly fat girl all the time, probably because I always AM the ugly fat girl everywhere I go out in public.

And that's kind of whats on my mind today.

List of short term goals:

1)Fast until August 1st (End on July 31 11:59:59 p.m.)
2)Lose one size by August 15th
3)Be friendly at Duck Camp and don't eat anything
4)Lose 2 sizes by August 22nd
5)Weigh 199 by September 6th (For Kris)

( Pictures of me...scary...I'm huge...you might go blind )

Pretty scary shit, I know. But these are my new before pictures and I can't wait to post new one after I reach my first goal weight of 199. I know that is still huge. But still, it's a motivation for me. If you plan on commenting, be as harsh as possible. Write all the mean things you thought of. I don't want any nice thing. I don't want a compliment for ANYTHING (not even "cute swimsuit"). If you plan on commenting, make it the hard truth. Thanks.

I don't really have much news. Just that I love green tea and water. I don't know what I'd do without them.

Actually, I do have news. Tax free weekend is August 15th-17th and I want to be at my first goal weight by then, which is 199. Is it possible to lose about 30 pounds in two weeks? I don't think so, but I know that with my fast this week and with all the working out and work that I do, I think I can get pretty close.

I hate food. So much. I hate what it does. I hate how it heightens every imperfection I have.

And that's probably why I love water and green tea so much. They don't do anything to me. They aren't a parasite, they are here for me so I don't cave in to horrible food. Ugh.

I need to learn how to do an LJ cut, but I don't know how.

So far for the day, I have net cal of -587 calories. So that is good, I guess, seeing as how I can at max have 300 calories for day 3 of ABC.

But I really want a grilled cheese sandwhich. I can eat it. I checked on www.thedailyplate.com to see how much it is if I ate one. I'd still be in the negatives for cals if I had one. But I'm scared if I give in to my wishes now that I have some leverage, what if I am almost to my max calories on another day and I'm tempted to eat more? I don't want my mind to think that it's ok to eat. Because it's not.

Eating won't bring me any closer to my goal. Eating is a selfish act for me to do.

I'm back. At a crazy weight of 220 also. But I'll lose it, just you wait.

I think I"m going to start posting personal journal entries a lot more. It'll be something to look back on and keep me focused with what I'm doing.

So it's june 27th, 2:25 p.m. and I'm only to have 500 calories today. I've had 3 bottles of water and I've eaten a medium sized carrot and a medium sized cucumber. So far so good!

My exercise plan is to finish work at either 4 or 6, shower, and then go to the Fitness Center and run at least 2 miles and burn a minimum of 250 calories.

Yeah. LiveJournal is confusing. I have no clue where to find the communities I'm in, or the friends I have. If I even have friends. *sigh*